My Favorite Thing

As you can see, I've found my passion. Though I am currently going to school to be a dental assistant, my lifelong dream has always been to open my very own photography studio as a side job/hobby. I have always loved taking pictures; as long as I can remember I've always had a camera in my hand. The photo on the left was taken today, by me. I love it. It's so simple yet so beautiful. My favorite things to photograph are couples, guitars, ballet/dance, and pianos. Oh I love it!

Other than this little hobby I've been enjoying, I haven't been doing too much. Just trying to get through school so I can graduate and begin my career!

It's been two months

Two months since I last wrote. Gosh, it really makes me realize how much I've lost my passion for blogging.

Well, Christmas is twelve short days away and my final exam is eight even shorter days away. I sit here sick, I think. Everything I eat or drink seems to give me a stomach ache and then I have to run to the bathroom. Luckily I'm not throwing up, but it's still no fun. And I have this terrible spinning sensation, it's awful. I can't sleep, but I'm exhausted. I can't eat, but I'm starving. I'm really quite miserable.

My best friend Sarah, however, is in more pain than I, at the moment. She went to the hospital at 8:00 this morning to be induced and hopefully I will have a healthy little Godson by tonight! But if I am sick, I won't be able to see him...what a bummer. It's raining out...how depressing...man I really wish I could eat. I'm thinking maybe a visit to that little medical center might clear things up. Maybe they can give me an antibiotic. Anyway, that's my update. I know, I don't sound good...but is anyone really cheery when they're sick? Oh I'm going to freak if I have swine...

Ahh the busy life...

One word: COLLEGE.

Another word: TIRING.

Another: LIFE-CONSUMING.

Thank goodness I am going for something I want to do, otherwise I might never make it. My classes are not hard, in fact...most are too easy. They are what I learned in high school. The only one I am struggling with is Political Science and that's because I'm not a huge fan of politics. I just can't get into it. Boring. Haha, anyway. I'm surviving with little time to do anything. Next semester I have three classes so I may not be as swamped or I may be MORE swamped because they are all science classes.

Not sure I have blogged about it yet, but I am engaged. The wedding planning is coming along but it's hard right now because it's eight months away so it feels like it's never going to get here. Plus, it's hard to get anything done with all these classes and bouts of homework. Plus I just got over a bad cold and my throat is still a little scratchy. I am also experiencing achy cramps and my ears are still a little clogged from the cold. I know I sound a little depressed and I won't lie, I am a tad bit. This is the first time I will go through an anniversary of my dad's death without my mama. Yes, I will have her, but I will not be living with her. I know Travis will be here and comfort me, but just the thought of my mommy not being able to hold me in the middle of the night when I'm sad, still makes me a little lonely. But I am just going through my annual October depression. It's been an uncontrollable tradition since 2005. Miss you daddy. And mommy, I miss you too and I can't wait till we spend the day together tomorrow!!! There is always light in the darkest situations.

A few prayer requests:

1. I get through this month with my sanity in tact.

2. I get through this SEMESTER with my sanity in tact.

3. Travis gets a better job with healthcare before June 26th, 2010.

4. My mommy finds a job.

5. My mommy sells the house for good money.

6. I learn to budget better, spending is an unfortunate addiction.

7. They put "In God We Trust" back on the new $1 coin.

8. I pass my classes.

A World Without

What would this world be like if we were like turtles? Weird question, I know...but think about it. Your mother lays your egg and tenderly watches it, protecting it with her life. Then one day, she leaves. Before you can even thank her for life. You hatch. Alone and afraid you find your way to the water and fend for yourself, never knowing who you are.

Where would we be without mothers? They kiss your booboos and pinky toes when you stub them, no matter the amount of sock fuzzies. Thank you mama. They hold you and tell you they love you even when you've done something wrong. They put their hands on your chest when the car stops quickly. They remind you to look both ways before crossing the street.

What about fathers? They protect you from the dark closet and boys that break your heart. They teach you how to catch a ball and only smile when it takes a million drops before you finally catch it. They comfort mothers when you move away to college and the day you get married; even though they're just as unravelled in those times.

What about grandparents? They always seem to have candy and never-ending hugs. They teach you history better than any teacher in the world. Their birthday and Christmas cards always arrive in the mail first.

What about brothers? They fend off bullies and sometimes, they are the bullies. They might be annoying sometimes, but you always love that about them.

Sisters? They know you better than any other family member. They are your equal. They know exactly what to say and when to say it, simply because they pay very close attention to your needs.

Friends? The true ones are always there, no exceptions. They'll open their arms even when they don't have the time. They are the ones you can trust with your deepest secrets.

But mostly remember, your mothers. They carried you for nine months. Everywhere they went you were there. They loved you before they even knew what you looked like or before they even knew they wanted you. Mothers are God's greatest gift and we should appreciate them and give them more credit. Without mothers we'd have to find our own ways through the sand to the big ocean, and let's face it...we could never do that without a mother.

My heart goes out to any child or adult in the world that has to walk without their mothers. I lost my father yes, but my mother is my rock. I could never stand up straightly without her guidance. She always knows what to say, whether I want to hear it or not. She gets mad on occasion but has never yelled "I hate you." or "You are being so unfair.". I wish more people in the world could have a mommy as wonderful as mine. She's a wonder woman. She juggles love, work, bills, projects, me, and everything else without ever failing. Even when I make mistakes, she always tells me she loves me and it will be okay.

Thank you mama, for being my everything. When I was at Travis's great-grandma's funeral I just kept watching his grandma, wondering how great the strength you must have to say farewell to your mommy. It snapped my heart in two for her and I realized that I don't even know how to approach that future, I just know I won't be able to do it. Your my best friend in the whole world and I will always need you, as you will need me one day. I promise I will take good care of you when you can't anymore. I will try very hard to take care of you as well as you have cared for me; however I know I could never compare. You are my true hero.

A Faith Restored

Almost four years ago my father committed suicide and my close relationship with God was shattered. I was not angry with Him, I just didn't know how to cope. I forgot He is the only One who can help. I stopped praying as much and slowly I drifted away. Now, four years later I realized who I am supposed to be. My faith has been restored. My life renewed. My relationship with God has already grown in just a few days. I plan on allowing it to continue to grow. There are still a lot of things I need to talk to God about but the big ones have been taken care of. All I ask from you bloggers is prayer. Prayer that I will continue to grow in Christ.

I think I may have finally found the happiness I started chasing three years ago.

A Piece of Heaven

I recently received word of a few young singers called the "Cactus Cuties". At first I was not too interested in listening to them. Then, my mom told me they were incredible so I gave in. I went to YouTube.com and typed in Cactus Cuties. WOW. Was I ever wrong. Listening to their version of "Amazing Grace" brought me to tears. To think if little girls on Earth can sing that beautifully, what do you think the passed in heaven are hearing now? Their voices are a sweet, sweet glimpse of heaven. Thank you Jesus for beautiful reminders of your peace.

Save The Trees

Well, I'm going green. Not completely of course, just aiming towards a better lifestyle health wise. That means no more super sugary foods, pop, or foods that have been fried passed recognizable. I went to the Sawall Health Food Store in Kalamazoo today, it's a good one, and bought dye free/odorless bar soap and lotion made of all natural products. I'm probably going to OD on vitamins pretty soon. I'm switching to water or %100 fruit juices. However, I'm not switching all my cleaning products (since I paid good money for them) or using less toilet paper. I'm not so much focused on going green for the Earth to "Save The Trees", I'm just trying to treat myself a little better...I'm not the best in that area. Some encouragement would be good! And, any input on your healthy choices would be great, since I'm new to this whole process!

Thanks!